Not perfect

Just read Khai ling's blog...

my friend..

be tough...

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i agree in her second's blog....

and also the comment given..

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yeah...

nobody's perfect..

no one...

not in this world...

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Appreciate someone we love...

we just too care because we scare we will lose that person we love so much...

we care because we love you..

we only want you to love us back like we love you...

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Appreciatition never been done..

after only we lose a person...

then only we know that we do not appreciate...

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Im asking people to be tough...

but myself?

am i?

did i deserve to advise people?

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i just keep telling myself...

be tough..

whatever happen..

i still have myself to trust...

i stil have myself to win back all my priority...

and get back what i supposed to get..

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only i can help myself...

NO ONe...

NO..

No one can ever stop me from winning...

我真的不能接受...

崩溃..

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很不喜欢这种感觉...

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真的不能接受....

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无法接受...

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为何这些又发生了?

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那是我的恶梦..

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我以为，不会再发生...

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我不想，真的...

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请原谅我...

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这次我又错了...

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每次唱到一首很有关系的歌，

都想流泪，

真不想再唱下去，

但，

我在做工，

用了很虚假的笑容，

面对大家...

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我为什么那么爱你...

我自己，

也不懂...

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why it happen again??

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TT

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now at my working place...

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forget to bring my handphone..

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cant sms..

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miss her...

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Please dont leave me...

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plz forgive me...

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really..

Trust...

Yesterday..

before going to work...

i cried..

i almost gone crazy....

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Sorry...

but i really being hurt when u told me..

'u are willing to DIE for friends,,'

so..

and what i am to you?

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im huRt because you told me before...

'you are willing to gave Up your friends for me....

but now u telling me you put more care in friends....

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I didnt say that i dont like your friends...

i just dont like people who are not responsible...

i have it once...

i dont want to get it anymore...

i just need time to gain my trust back to them...

i need time...

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please dont blame me for this....

what i need just care from you....

really...

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To friends...

after all that happen...

im afraid to trust anymore...

I've been betray once..

and twice..

now i've being used..

once and twice....

NO MORE...

iM Not a tool....

New Comer...

http://onlyxkinnx.blogspot.com

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She is new

Visit her blog when u have time..xp

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its my hubby's blog....xp

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to my friends...
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i updated my blog...
but all my link had disappear....
so if that you visit my blog...
plz do leave your blog's url for me....
thank ya....
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i can only remember some of the blog....
thx for you coorperation.....
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xp

Future Plan

i thought that im finishing my contract on the 27th of november..
but im finishing at the 14th of november...
im acpecting my salary of rm2000...
but now i have only rm1200...

well...
its a good news and also a bad news for me....
good news is i can rest and concentrate on my studies....
i also can continue my dancing.....
becaise i havent dance for so long,
the 'flesh' on my body is getting more and more...
i havent dance for so long...
i also can hang out with my friends...**yeepee**
and also with my hubby....

the bad news is that..
as what i say...
i have less salary...
if i dont work...
i dont have any money for myself...
as my parents have already stop giving me allowance...
my hubby always help me..
she will pay for my meals..
and sometimes pay for my petrol...

i cant use my car for this time...
as some problem occured..
im in such a headache...
driving motor under heavy rain...
whole body wet and ends up with a cold...
driving motor to work...
or sometimes my huby fetch me...
usually i drive motor...
bring lots of stuff...
im really scared of driving motor...
especially when im bring a laptop.....
but what can i do...
thats only my transport...
i should be thankful....

well...
i believe...
that someday...
i will be a successful person...
i just need to continue my independents...
earn money for my future plan.....
my future plan is quite big..
and i hope i do succeed it....
once and for all...
i really hope...

hubby...
whatever we have plan and promise to each other...
i believe...
it will accomplish...
please do believe in me...
as we stay longer in our relationship....